Why?

One of the universal question's of this life is "why is this happening? or why me?" I think it is only human for us to feel this way and we must go through the emotions when we find ourselves faced with a difficult trial or situation. A tragic accident, illness, a loss, separation, addition, disappointment, heartache and physical pain. No one person is free from sorrow at one point or another in there life. Many time's it can last for years on end. It is part of our existence and why we are here. So what are we going to do about it? A choice.... Strap on our boots and trudge right through it or turn away and let it destroy us.

I have found myself faced with this fork in the road several times through out my life. A wise man once told me (aka my father) "try to look for the blessings that the Lord give's you in your trials and you will be able to find a tiny ray of sunshine to help you pull through." I have clung to his advice time and time again. Don't get me wrong I have had many a days were I wished I had a padded room where I could bang my head in and scream as loud as I could, probably more day's than I would have liked. A wise woman once told me (aka my mother) " So scream! Let it out, you have good reason too. Cry there is nothing wrong with tears. Just when you are through get down on your knee's and plead for the Lords strength to be help you."

So pleading I did. I had to be strong for Ethan, I had to be strong for Emmett. Emmett was the one who has physically suffering and Ethan emotionally. Michael was a rock for all of us. We had our moments as a couple, but who doesn't. We had to come together to be a force for our boys and each other.

As I am learning the human body is like a intricate clock, each piece depending upon the other to work correctly. If one part struggles the other parts start to be effected. This I am learning with Emmett's tiny little body. We have lot's of thing's to focus on for Emmett's future. But we are taking it day by day. I am so happy we are out of survival mode for the most part and working on rehabilitation. It is terrifying to me to see the amount of damage one little button battery had made that has caused a life long impact on my sweet little boy! But he is here! That is all that matter's. God is good and I am so grateful!

Go Emmett, Go!